naughty naughty
i should be happy.
life has been different these past three weeks. ns was everything i expected it to be and it brought with it realisations which never would have propped up before.
i miss home. i miss my friends. i miss sheereen.
i miss watching tv till 4 am in the morning and waking up at one in the afternoon to go to work.
i miss chilling out with ah pek and the gang eating supper and smoking all my money away.
i miss sitting across her, listening to her go on and on about something or another...loving the fact that she is and wants to be with me.
as much as i miss some things, i'm pretty surprised about the things that i don't miss...and the things that i actually enjoy about my present situation.
i guess what those things are don't really matter but what i think matters is that i will get through this...and move on. i may not be the best company...but it'll only be for awhile.
apa nak jadi...jadilah.
i never realised how apt that title was. bmt 1/5 through...many many more weeks to go.
