this is not an exit
keeping things inside sucks. they rot and eat away at you and make you feel quesy, angry and emotional at the same time, yes i know anger is also an emotion, so sue me for being repetitive.
but wat if you kept something inside long ago and dealt with it, thought you dealt with it. only for it to be opened up by something significant but you did not foresee making any difference, making you feel a rush of mixed emotions that's been hidden and bottled up because you thought you dealt with it. convoluted. i know.
you know wat you have to do. but you dread the consequences for yourself bcos you know keeping it inside makes things better for everyone else...and maybe even you, only you don't know it yet.
enlightenment. where art thou? or at least something strong enough to stop me from thinking abt it so much.
and yeah...i aint trustin no snake...that i need no enlightening.
I'll be there as soon as i can
but i'm busy mending broken pieces of the life i had before
